It's Your Life

I constantly get asked from people, "So tell me about yourself, what are you about?"
And I just say, "Read my About Me." They want to know more about me, stuff that I don't tell people, things about me that no one knows or ever knew. Just everything.
I've been told I shut people out and never let them know what's going on with me, for the simple fact that you don't KNOW me. You can walk a mile in my shoes, read a biography on my life, hear the words come from my mouth, and you still wouldn't know shit about me, just as anyone else.
But if you insist, where do I begin?
I'm 19, I'll be 20 on 10/14. I'm not happy unless my mom is happy, she would never disappoint me like most people I let in my life, which is why I stay SHUT!
I was teased badly as a child, I never had this cocky attitude like most people. Once I got to high school, I sprouted into something vicious. People wanted to be with me, be around me, love me, fuck me, kiss me, date me, and I realized it was because I didn't look how I use to look. It only showed me people were shallow. You have a handful of people who don't give two shits about looks, including myself. Shallow people get no play in my book. I've dated a couple of shallow assholes, only because at that time, I didn't know they were really that way. It sickens me. (Thank God its over.)
I've been sexually harassed on numerous accounts, which is why I'm so mean towards the opposite sex unless they're gay or if I've known them for a while to where I know they won't try anything.
I don't like getting to know people unless I find some kind of interest in them, which is hardly ever. I'm very rebellious, I've always been the type to do what I wanted, even if it were a fucked up idea. I like girls I can't have and eventually get them because I got it like that. I fall in love on impact and out of it just as easily.
I use to cry a lot when no one was around because it hurt(s) to be me. I try to make others happy before myself, but not anymore, no one is worth the trouble.
I do not trust ANYONE, and it is hard for me to do it because everyone is a liar to me. Like Scarface, I always tell the truth, even when I lie. I'm an honest person and I hate liars.
I don't like it when people feel its okay to talk to me any kind of way, I'm not a child, and I do retaliate if needed. I'm nothing and no one to fuck with, so download that into your brains before any of you feel you wanna get fresh with me. God gave us all brains for two reasons: To think, and to think twice!
I don't make threats, I just do it.
I honestly think I've only been in love once. (Think what you want, I don't care.)
I dream a lot. I make my dreams reality.
Like anyone else, I am my worst critic. I say and do a lot that makes people's mouths drop. While they're all in awe, I'm telling myself I could have done better or dissatisfied with whatever it was that I've done.
I'm very shy, always have been, probably won't ever grow out of it.
After one conversation, I can see directly through you.
I'm an over-thinker, I think entirely too much.
I'm constantly reading and writing poetry.
I value friendships & everyone that's honest with me.
I'm not easily impressed - But I can impress you without trying.
My biggest fear is that I will fail in life (aside from losing my mom).
I think of dancing my ass off in front of millions of people and them all screaming for me, I've always wanted to experience that, and I will.
I don't like to kiss, but I love lips.
I'm very ass backwards. I don't like something but I like something it relates to.
I'm self conscious.
When I really want something, I go for it and get it, no matter how long it takes.
I'm a quiet person. I love you for you and accept the good.
I am a very different person, maybe that's what people like about me.
I don't dress like YOU because YOU dress like THEM!
I want to save the world.
I'm just me.